Astacia's Attic - Missing my mom- in a good way

Missing my mom- in a good way

Nov. 24th, 2008 at 9:52 PM

I'm sitting here with a candle lit beside me, listening to Earth Mama, and remembering cool things about my Mom. Butterfly reminds me the most of Mom. Anyway, at the C-Team meeting Thursday we all agreed to do this tonight; light a candle and remember something good about Mom. I bet there are a lot of great stories floating around the mountains right now. :)

BUTTERFLY

by Jana Stanfield and Joyce Johnson Rouse

I was sitting alone on a hillside, confused about what to do
My choices were all complicated, it was time to think things through
I spotted a striped caterpillar stretching his face to the sky
Dragging his cumbersome body an inch at a time.
I was feeling the pain of slow progress, when a friend of his fluttered by
I leaned close as the caterpillar spoke with a voice as soft as a sigh. He said:

CHORUS

Butterfly, please tell me again, I’m gonna be alright
I can feel a change is comin’, I can feel it in my skin
I can feel myself outgrowing this life I've been living in
And I’m afraid, afraid of change
So, Butterfly, please tell me again I’m gonna be alright

I’m like my friend caterpillar, afraid of that dark cocoon
Wanting to hide in the tall grass from change that is coming soon
All of the things that we long for are born on the wings of change
Losses can lead us to blessings that we can’t explain
Butterflies remind us, there’s magic in every life
And we can be all that we dream of, if fat furry worms can fly

REPEAT CHORUS

On the day of my last breath
I expect to see angels like butterflies over my head, and I’ll say

REPEAT CHORUS

Butterfly, please tell me again I’m gonna be alright

Mood: relaxed

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devilindisgize wrote:

Nov. 25th, 2008 03:06 am (UTC)

Did you lose your mother? IF its not too sensative of a subject, woudl you mind telling me about it?

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astaciamorrigen wrote:

Nov. 25th, 2008 12:48 pm (UTC)

I don't mind talking about it at all. :)

Mom was diagnosed with Type II Diabetes when I was 12. (I'm 35 now, so 23 years ago.) Because we had lousy insurance it went ill-treated for years and she developed End Stage Renal Failure, which resulted in her going on Dialysis 9 years ago.

Last year she had a heart attack, which caused her to be hospitalized for a month, and resulted in her death on 24 November last year.

That's the Reader's Digest version. I went back and found all the posts from that time for you to read if you'd like. They're here: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7

It was a very difficult time, with incredible ups and downs. But now I'm able to look back- not just on that month, but on my entire life- and I'm gateful for all of the time I was granted with Mom and for the incredible friendship we had forged toward the end of her life.

She was an amazing woman, and I try to live by her example. :)

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